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some days are great, some.. some days are not so great, but i'm doing the best that i can.

Cold and Flat

HELLOOOOOO!! It's 2015 already... 

2 years of no posting! HAHAHA. and now here i am! writing a post, and lost in the middle of nowhere in my mind, i lack of words to write, i mean lack of story. well, that's not the case tbh, cuz the truth is i've got a lot of things to be told, but i guess it's kinda personal, ah whatever.

so, i just graduated from high school a few weeks ago. sad or happy, i still can't decide what my feeling is now. maybe yes i am sooooo happy that i am freed from those homeworks and exams, but i am sooooo sad toooo, for not being able to meet all my friends like usual, for being unable to have breakfast together with my friends ( let me tell you that my school's canteen has the best nasi lemak and nasi sayur EVER ) and now i'm craving for it. yezzzzz in the middle of the night. and of course, i am sad PLUS ashamed cause now that i am an official graduate, it means that i am unemployment now since i don't have any jobs..................

high school had been good and bad, i came to realize that not everything is going the way we expect it is, good things don't last ( but i do hope that some do last ), lies are a temporary solution to a permanent problem, not everyone who's good in front of you will be good at your back, communication is a must... well, i lost my friends just because we're just too afraid to be the first one to start talking. hm, first i thought that WE would never DIE, but whatever.

so these are some of lily's birthday surprise photos!

it looks like i am the one who's having a birthday since i wear quite long dress here -.-

p.s. i am so happy to have these two monkeys in my life!

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die for you

you were trouble

bleeding love

Hi. Back to December again and it almost reaches the end of december.. anywayyy.. It has been a long timeeee that I have no post any craps here. Oh well, let me tell you everything that have stuck in my mind for such a long long time. Exams… have passed already. The results were such an unthinkable letdown for me. I’ve studied hard. I have woke up at 3am, and read all those shits then my stomach cramping like hell everytime when I woke up. For good, I sleep again. Lol. And I forgot to study HAHAHA. when I received the result and see it, my heart broke into pieces lol and I can’t say anything. But I keep pretending that I was ok, laughing at my marks, when the fact is I’M NOT and I’M JUST DYING INSIDE. But I know this is my own mistake. Why I don’t want to study, why I think little of it, why I keep telling myself that I can do it, why I want to depend on others, why I think that it was just such an easy lesson, no need to study, I will get the easy-cheating teacher. Sigh…. REGRET. So another thing to tell you is, idk why I love to be a loner now. I don’t have any mood to talk to others, or maybe this is just my stupid feeling?

anyway, don’t you ever think about your future? Hah! This is the biggest stressful thingy in my mind now. Everyday I’m keep thinking about this. I have no idea about my future. I even don’t have any goals in my life. Which direction I have to choose? it will be too bad if I have a goal in my life from others’ incitements. December wasn’t good at all.  but i keep on struggling to survive in this clueless life! Okay then, is it too early for 2013’s wish lists? because i wanted to put your name at the top of my list :)

HAVE AN EARLY-BLESSED CHRISTMAS EVERYONE  ☃

die young